The game we long for
Champions crowned, trophy raised
Weary souls take rest
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The game we long for
Champions crowned, trophy raised
Weary souls take rest
Rushing river roars
Majestic mountain meadows
Cozy cabin calls
An unsettling fog rolled over the mountains at night, turning tree branches into crystal chandeliers and freezing my windowpanes shut. At least the snow had subsided. I put on boots and stepped outside to check for an unobstructed flue, the fog chilling my bare legs and chest. Clear flue, cleared to add fuel to the stove. I wondered if even the smoke would be able to penetrate this fog?
I’d set out for my high camp on a mild and breezy Wednesday afternoon. The snow drifts and narrow trails were impassable this time of year with all but a snowmobile, and mine had been in pieces in the garage for the better part of two years now. I liked snowshoeing into camp though, cold air filling my lungs, testing my legs on the winding ascent. Besides, machines are unreliable in the freezing temperatures and wet snow.
A hair over three miles later and the A-frame was in site. Plenty of game tracks on my way in, but nothing too close to the cabin. Squirrels had nestled into the firewood shelter when they couldn’t break into the cabin. No sign of humans tampering with the place or trying to run off with the split wood. The start of a great long weekend.
As happens in the Rocky Mountain high country, a twenty-five percent chance for snow turned into a three-day dump. I can’t say that I minded too much. This was meant to be a retreat from the grind of work and the busy streets in town. Hiking, reading, writing, and quiet. The hiking mostly got replaced by shoveling, keeping a path cleared for the necessities: The flue, the outhouse, and the firewood.
Now it’s a foggy Sunday morning. I have enough rations to make the hike back down to the trailhead today, but if I stay another night, I’ll just go hungry in the morning. The fire in the old stove is burning bright, the A-frame warm and cozy. Choices, choices. Pack it up and set out for home at noon? Stay stripped up here, fasting, listening for words of wisdom? I don’t feel like getting dressed yet.
Start with a flourish
Obstacles drain and defeat
A bright light burns out
I am warm and strong
Providing refuge from fear
Take comfort in me
Suffer in comfort
Trapped in mundane everyday
Just go for the hike
Immense granite face
Unmovable foundation
My strength flows from you
Dreamt of love last night
Red-hued scenes of seduction
Love without restraint
What do I lose
to love with all of my heart
Am I worried
that I’ll miss out on more
Of more and more
Am I saving
part of my heart in fear
The fear of pain
to love and lose again
Again and again
Or do I lust
after a fleeting dream
A dream of love
that is without hard work
Work and more work
Why not just love
you with all of my heart
Knowing I will
lose and have pain and fear
Dream loving dreams
Blacked out hotel room
Wake confused with mild panic
Slopes outside await